Another one from my past...im not that strange honest

Do you hate the way i act?
When i smile its untrue.
My so called happiness is fake,
its all put on for you.

Make of me what you will.
Forget what you want , this is me.
I sit in darkness bleeding,
with a sad hope i'll be set free.

I had it all the time,
my happiness,a dream, a job!
Everything in life fell through,
I turned in to this fooked up slop.

Dont tell me to be happy,
when all i feel is hate.
You didnt help me when my life shattered,
Yet again you were just too late.